Monday, May 28, 2012

Pink eye?

Last week I thought I had pink eye.  My eye was, well... pink.  And watery and crusty in the morning, but it wasn't itching or burning so I wasn't certain it was pink eye.  I know I could simply go to the doctor, get diagnosed, and get eye drops or whatever.  But... I couldn't get myself to go to the doctor.  My eye, my right eye, the one that was pink was also the eye that has an almost bare lid.  How was I supposed to go to the doctor, have him look at my eye and not notice the lack of lashes?!  I told my husband, "I really don't want to go to the doctor... it's embarrassing and I really don't want to explain or be viewed as a freak."  He told me they wouldn't view me like that, but I didn't care... And I didn't go.  

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Sometimes you need a reminder

I had a dream last night...
My husband and I were on our way to church.  About halfway there I realize that I have no make-up on.  I freak out and want to go home.  But my husband insists that we just go.  I beg him to sit in the back so hopefully no one will see me.  I had no eyelashes and was very conscience of it.  I felt very ugly and wanted to hide.  
Thankfully I woke up before anyone made fun of me... and thankfully it was a just a dream.  

Friday, May 18, 2012

How come both sets of lashes can't look decent at the same time?!?  Few weeks ago, my right lashes were actually looking pretty good, but the left were still pretty bare.  Now my right looks bare and my left is okay (kinda).  Wish I was a little more symmetrical- I'd rather have both sets bare than half and half.  Well... even better both sets full and beautiful... someday.  

Wednesday, May 9, 2012


Just wanted to share one of my favorite songs... one that I don't mind getting stuck in my head :)

Monday, May 7, 2012

If I pull once, I consider the day a loss and don't really try for the rest of the day.   I'm also kinda ocd about starting things.  I like to start things on Sundays (I'm sometimes okay with Mondays- since that's the beginning of a work week) or on the first of the month.  If I'm going to start exercising, dieting... or trying to be pull free it has be at the beginning of the week- not a Thursday.  And if I fail at what I'm doing during the week... I tend to just give up until the following week starts up again.  Maybe this quirk is just an excuse?!?!  Something I need to work on.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Sometimes damage comes like a wrecking ball and other times it's brick by brick.  Damage is damage.  But I kinda felt like I wasn't doing much damage cause I was just pulling a lash here and there.  My lashes were starting to look good- so in a way I gave myself permission to pull "just one."  But one by one, I lost the growth that I had gained.  I need to remind myself that although pulling less is good... it is still doing damage.