Monday, January 28, 2013

Colin Ferrell mentions hair pulling...

...but I don't think he's going to be a celebrity spokesperson for trichotillomania.  For one- he doesn't even know what hair pulling is called.  It's mentioned here in the first part of the interview with Jay Leno from October 15, 2012 (below). 
And actually, I already knew that Ferrell had trich prior to this interview.  I had googled "celebrity's with trich" once and his name came up.  Supposedly he mentioned it in a GQ interview once, but for the life of me I could never find the actual article that said it.  So I had only read things from others saying that he mentioned it once.  So... here he is on Leno saying he was a hair puller.  I doubt his interview will really help anyone, but... it doesn't hurt either.  It's spreading a little more awareness.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

My problem area (in the back of my head) is rather thin, but sometimes I forget how thin.  Well, that is until it's freezing outside- then I'm reminded.  Such an odd feeling to notice a burst of cold air in just one spot on the back of your head.  Literally, my head is colder where my hair is thin... very thin apparently.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Found this on deviantART and wanted to share it with you. Anyone else ever feel like they're a puppet and you have no control over the strings?  
Trichotillomania by MaryTheManatee

Tuesday, January 15, 2013


If you're interested, TLC just shared this today:

Internet Survey: Your Input is Needed!

Understanding the Emotional Cycles that Maintain Hairpulling among Subtypes of Trichotillomania

A graduate student, Sebastian Siwiec, from the University of Lethbridge in Alberta, Canada, is seeking your participation in an anonymous online survey to develop our understanding about the emotional patterns in adults with trichotillomania (hair-pulling disorder).

This study is inviting any adults who are 18 or older and who have trichotillomania or chronic hair-pulling to participate. You will be asked to complete an internet-based survey. The survey will take most individuals only 20-30 minutes to complete. For taking the time to complete the survey, I will be donating 1$ on your behalf to the Trichotillomania Learning Center.

Purpose behind the study: Individuals with trichotillomania often fluctuate between pulling their hair intentionally, or finding themselves suddenly aware that they have pulled without any idea of when they started. These two styles are commonly called focused and automatic pulling. What this study hopes to do with your help is develop an understanding of the emotions that occur around these two styles of pulling. My hope is that the information we collect together in this survey will help shed more light on trichotillomania and help continue developing effective treatment strategies.

To participate and learn more about this completely anonymous study, please click the link below. Thank you so much for your time and contribution!

This study has been approved by the University of Lethbridge Human Subjects Research Committee.

Monday, January 14, 2013

Trichster is a go!!

As of now, Trichster has received 93% funding.  That means this film WILL be made!  How cool is that!!  There will definitely be a documentary about trichotillomania.  Talk about spreading awareness- this is so awesome!  

Also, Trichster was featured in IndieNYC, check it out here.  One interesting thing in the article (which I didn't know before), trich affects "three times the amount of those who suffer from anorexia."  Wow!  That's just crazy to think.  I mean, everyone has heard of anorexia.  Most people even know someone who has/had suffered from it.  Wow.  So glad Trichster will make this disorder known.

Friday, January 11, 2013

Starting today Trichster has an anonymous donor who has agreed to match all donations for a week! How cool is that?! If you want to donate- this is the week to do it!  Let's make this documentary happen!  

Just go to

Thursday, January 10, 2013

I don't know what is wrong with my hair today.  Not sure if I didn't rinse well enough when I showered or what.  The texture of my hair just feels off today- and every hair I touch wants to be pulled.  Ahhhh- so annoying!  Debating if I should shower again or something.  

Sunday, January 6, 2013

To start off, I didn't wear any make-up yesterday.  My husband was gone for the day and I was just at home with the kiddos.  Not only did I not have make-up on, I didn't really get dressed either (old maternity yoga pants and a fleece don't count as getting dressed).  Clearly I wasn't planning on seeing anyone besides my family.
Well, when my husband came home that night he really wanted ice cream and we didn't have any.  For whatever reason, it was decided that I'd go get ice cream for us.  He didn't care where it was from- he just wanted ice cream.  So my option was to go to some fast food place and go through the drive-thru or go to a grocery store.  And it's amazing how trichotillomania can effect me deciding between fast food or a grocery store!  

Sounds crazy, right?  But Trichotillomania is a huge part of my life.  I think about it and how I look waaaaaaay more than I'd like to admit.  And here's how if effected my simple decision last night.  

It was late in the evening and I had no make-up on.  And if you remember, I don't go anywhere without make-up (specifically eye make-up).  But if I went through a drive-thru at night- there would just be brief interactions with people and poor lighting since it was late.  So I could probably get away with going there and no make-up.  But... I didn't really want ice cream from a fast food place.  I'd rather pay less for a gallon of something better.  However, going to a grocery store involves much more human interaction and bright lighting.  I even mentioned to my husband that I'd need to get pants and make-up on in order to go to the grocery store.  He just looked at me and said, "well, maybe pants."  Really?!  Does he honestly think I can go out in public with no make-up?!  I told him that I was ugly without make-up (cause that's honestly how I feel).  I hate looking at myself in the mirror without make-up on and I'd hate to think what others must think of me without it too. 

What is wrong with me?!?!  Why does the appearance of my eyelashes effect my decision to go to a store or not?!?  Ugh!
Well... just a couple hours before bedtime, I put on eyeliner and mascara so I could run into a grocery store and pick up a gallon of ice cream.  Sad.      

This isn't trich related, but...
The other day my husband gave me a weird look and said, "you should go look at your eye."  I went to the mirror and noticed a spot on my eyelid- I assumed it was make-up, but it didn't rub off.  I still assumed it was make-up, just stubborn make-up.  But the next day after I got out of the shower, I noticed that the spot was still there.  It was a bruise!  A bruise?!  
I have no idea how it got there.  My eye didn't/doesn't hurt.  No one poked me in the eye or anything.  And I didn't have some pulling spree or anything where I pinched my eyelid while ripping out lashes.  So I still have no idea how I got this bruise... and I just thought I'd share cause it's seems odd.  Oh, and these pictures are with no make-up.  You can see my super sparse brows.  And the lashes you see are all bottom lashes- the top lashes are barely there.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

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Trichster still needs your help!  There's only 28 days left to raise $7,500.  If you can spare a dollar- please do!  Any little bit can help... help raise awareness about trichotillomania.  Just go to Trichster's Seed&Spark page here.