Friday, February 28, 2014

Thoughts

Fun Fact from Brain Games: "You have approximately 70,000 thoughts per day, although many may be the same thought repeating itself."
Wonder how many of my thoughts are trich related?  Hopefully less and less everyday.  Although trich will always be a part of life, I don't want it to consume my life.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

My hair was way overdue for a highlights and a trim.  It'd been like 6 months I think- getting a little dull and straggly (not to mention the bedhead in the first photo too).  Feels so much better now.  I LOVE that I have a stylist that I feel comfortable with.  Jamie is wonderful and I don't dread getting my hair done.  I can talk openly about my trich with her and feel okay about it.  I didn't even draw in my eyebrows today cause I just didn't feel like it.  And I felt comfortable with that.  I pointed it out to her and she said, oh, yours are like mine (Jamie has light eyebrows too) .  She saw them as light- not missing.  She didn't notice the damage and said most people probably wouldn't either.  I felt normal.  Normal can be such a great feeling.  I used to hate getting my hair done- and now I leave actually feeling good about myself.  What a difference a friend can make!  

Monday, February 17, 2014

Remodeling Project

Trich really hasn't been in the forefront of my mind lately.  Not saying I don't ever think about it, but I haven't focused on it.  I feel like there are so many areas in my life that need work.  The list for this remodeling project seems never ending.  And I just can't tackle them all at once.  It's overwhelming.  Not that trich isn't an important battle, but it feels a little cosmetic.  Take this kitchen for example.  I feel like focusing all my energy on trich would be adding a new coat of paint to these walls.  Yeah, it could use it, but clearly there are other issues that need to be addressed first.  Like clearing out the clutter.  And I think the hole in the ceiling should probably be addressed before painting the walls.      
 Do I like what I see in the mirror?  No.  But I need to do more than just plant flowers in the yard- that still won't make it "pretty."  I want to work on all of me.  Heart, soul and body.  And by body, I don't just mean a long set of lashes- I need to get in shape and take care of my body.  And you know... maybe taking care of all me will actually help take care of those cosmetic flaws staring at me in the mirror.    
Both images from Ugly House Photos
Anyone else feel like me?  Like you need to declutter, fix, improve, remodel so much about yourself?  Or do you guys got it all together? ;)