Today I got my hair cut and highlighted by Jamie (she's wonderful).  And she thanked me for sending her an article about trich.  She said it gave her a better understanding about trich.  Which she was grateful for because she had another customer with trich- a young girl.  She had goosebumps just telling me about this sweet young girl.  The young girl has no lashes and I pointed out to Jamie that I pull my lashes too.  I showed her up and close... And I didn't feel awkward at all.  We talked about trich for a bit... And I just realized that I wasn't even aware of the other people in the salon.  Who knows if anyone overheard- I felt comfortable enough where that didn't even cross my mind.  Hoping and praying that with more awareness others will feel comfortable  and not ashamed about having trichotillomania.

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Pulling others

I've had this post drafted since July '12... I just couldn't get myself to finish it and hit "publish."  Why?  Cause this part of trich just seems weird to me... especially cause I don't know how common it is among other trichsters.  Like will this make me even seem weird to them?!

So here it is... well, you can probably guess by the title.  Not only do I pull my own hair, but I pull others.  I'm serious... I pull out other peoples' hair.  Well, let me make it clear- just my immediate family.  Not like strangers... although sometimes I see hairs on people that are begging to be pulled.  I think to myself, "If that was my hair, I'd pull it!"  So yes, I pull my family's hair.  

Husband- I pull his white hairs... just a few at a time.  He doesn't care.  I'm sure he doesn't think it's trich related cause lots of people pull out those few white hairs... except in his case it's his wife pulling them.  I'm sure he'd think I was crazy if I got out the tweezers and pulled ever last single white hair out though.  Those white hairs bug me- they stand out so much against is auburn hair.  

My children- I pull those occasionally stray hairs that are just sticking up out of nowhere.  Not sure how much they've noticed (cause it's normally when I'm brushing or styling their hair).  But I have heard my son say "ouch" a few times.  

  

My cats- yes, even the cats.  My sweet Pinky is a calico cat.  And in some of her black patches she'll have one, just one, random white hair.  And it bugs me.  She'll tolerate me pulling a couple, but if I pull too many she gets annoyed and walks away.  Can't blame her :)  

Now, I don't do this often.  My family doesn't have bald patches or anything :)  But I do it enough where I'm aware of it.  And I think it's weird.  And I'm pretty sure you will too, but... there it is.  

*Update, I googled it.  And this article in TIME said, "a small minority pull other people's hairs."

Artwork by my friend at Lindsay Letters.  You should definitely check her out- she does amazing work!  She made this print for my sister Christina.

Yesterday I lost all my beads.  Yesterday I lost one pesky lash.  Yesterday I spiraled down and lost many more lashes.  Yesterday I was in a bad mood.  Yesterday I was so frustrated.  And then... yesterday I heard about Moore, Oklahoma.  I don't normally stray from the topic of trich on this blog... but my troubles with trich yesterday seem so unimportant now.  Yesterday I didn't lose a child.  Yesterday I didn't lost my home.  Yesterday I didn't suffer the pain of losing everything.  

So today I'm...

Trichster and TLC both shared this on their facebook pages- 

Life With Trichotillomania (video interview on Huffpost Live).  Nancy Redd talks with several trich suffers and a doctor.  Great interview spreading more awareness! 

Hosted by: 

• Nancy Redd

Guests:

• Sandy Rosenblatt @Sandybeach28 (Bethesda, MD) Has Trichotillomania
• Valerie Vanone (Brooklyn, NY) Has Trichotillomania
• Sarah Robertson @CanadianBFRB (Toronto, Canada) Founder of CBSN
• Dr. Ali Mattu @alimattu (New York, NY) Clinical Psychology Post-Doctoral Fellow, NYU Child Study Center

19 days pull free

I made it 19 days pull free- the longest I've ever gone!  There were definitely challenging days, where I felt like all of my thoughts were consumed by trich.  And other days were easier with less urges.  So although my streak is over, I am still really proud of how I did.  The lash pictured below has been bothering me for days.  It was long and straight and despite using an eyelash curler, it never curled.  It just stuck straight out.  So I tried my hardest to ignore it.  But I'd gently tug on it every once in a while... and then I started to notice that the lash hurt.  And that was more irritating than it being straight.  This morning I kept tugging on it and it kept hurting.  I knew it would quit hurting if I just pulled it out.  I knew this lash would end my streak... and I gave in.  And after that I pulled out the tweezers and pulled a few hairs that I had been bugging me as well.  I knew if I was going to try again tomorrow that these hairs would make it challenging.  I know that's probably stupid... cause there is always going to be some hair that is bothersome.    

Pull free day 1- starting tomorrow (really... I should start trying right now before I do some damage).  Okay... pull free day 1 starts tomorrow, but I'm going to start fighting the urges now.